Wishing a Slowdance Would Actually Turn Things Around

i missed my bLog. Kwentos and all.:))

2007-10-25T20:09:00.000+08:00

It was a school year filled with surprises. Full of fuckin damn surprises. :))
I missed my super old friends. I missed them really. Yet, their abscence were filled by my true friends indeed. My band- Nico C. dave A. Paolo G. Jun D. Neil R. Nico M. and the other addition- paolo T. - we were so bonded like hell this year. We are playing like we've never been before. Damn. We are so happy right now. Damn, we have played in several school auditions. Though di kami nakapasa. Damn. Im so happy to play with my friends. Im damn happy. Thanks!

My class- 4M. (the best class everin my life as a student)
Damn. Im really blessed with this effin class. Nobody really gets left behind. They're the people whom I look forward everyday, every morning. Damn you guys. You really made me effin happy.

Sir Ron Capinding- Sir, you are one hell of a teacher. Dont stop pushing us to become the best we can be. Icould say that given that you are good at acting, you are damn better in teaching and being a friend and a second father. :))

Mga teachers ko na iba pa- Sirs and Ma'am- you have given me confidence to do things by myself.

Huwaw- o nga pala, I still remember very clearly, I pulled it off. I sang in front of the whole community. I did it for God. Umaawit akong buong galak. ..

Thanks Sir Jampao for the chance.:)

Grabe, ang bilis ng fourth year, one second, 4 months na lang then bye bye beautiful Ateneo.:

to be continued--- inaantok na ako eh

continuation (its fuckin 11 o clock in the morning)

Oh mi oh my. Im going to sleep over at Ian's house today. Tomorrow gonna be a big day for 4M. Mimosa Baby. :)) gotta cherish these moments.

Oh my. Marami akong gustong ikwento.:))

First, i am indeed learning from Ralph. He's such a big fat flirt. Though I realy really idolize him for being such. He gest all the glitter and gals. Fuck, I envy him. Anyway, joke.:)) actaully, he really is a good friend. One whom I consider to be true. No shits and all. Kung mag-asaran kami ayos lang but he also helps me decide on some things. "Minamahal mo eh, stuff like that" Pero marami pa rin akong pang-asar sa kanya.:)) He's such a good friend. and smoking is really bad for him.:))

My st. paul friends!! woohoo! :)) It all started on one soiree then i found out that theyre fucking damn friendly. :)) I love them! Theyre really so cool. Really so damn cool. Pero next time, di na ako gagawa ng homework ha, di naman ako binabayaran eh? hahaha! joke Nik.:))

AA. Very close to my heart. Yuh. hahaha! uhmm. Damn, namimiss ko na kayoooo. Many changed, lalo na sa band auditions, whoa! hindi na mga girls, mga LADIES NA.:)) hahaha! "I am not confused anymore. :))---- yikeee. :))" I love you all.:P

Its damn sem break. ang rami raming gagawin.:)) exams na rin. ang lapit naaa. Oh well.

damn, it really made me feel depressed when I learned of alvin's death. A TD scholar. Wants to be a future teacher. Why God? Guide him to Your paradise.

Ano pa ba?

Damn, I still dont have plans fopr my ootreach program. Its killing me. But I really want to leave a legacy. work work work.

Holden Caulfield. You are fuckin emo.:)) stop being one, it depresses me. Hipster. :))

Thats it for now. :))

And if someone's wondering why I still dont have an effin girlfriend, ITS BECAUSE, IS TILL DONT WANT TO.:)) IM GONNA BECOME A PRIEST. A JESUIT. AYAW NIYO MANIWALA? SCRAM! :))

AND O NGA PALA, IM FUCKIN VARSITY.:)) BASEBALL.:)) DAMN, FRUSTRATION KO NUNG BATA AKOOOO.:))

FOUR WORDS TO CHOKE UPON.

love

2007-03-20T11:36:00.000+08:00

ano nga ang pag-ibig.

absurdo.

masakit.

masarap.

di mo maintindihan.

kala mo siya na.

hindi.

mahal niya ay iba.

ngayon.

problema.

tang-ina.

ayaw ko na.

pag-ibig.

ayaw ko na.

naka post din...

2006-10-15T13:03:00.000+08:00

its been 4 effin months since i posted in this blog. lots of changes. i survived first term and luckily got honors remebering the fucking long tests i flunked due to unknown reasons.. 2M-3M, bazillions changed. Lumalakai na ang population ng CBF incorporated..wala ako actually against them..actually it's cool to see how these guys compress their schedules tapos honors pa din..idol! anyway, we had a lot of soirees na rin na napuntahan, povedans, that was fun...section 3-1, ayos din...enjoy naman lahat, kaso na miss ko yung MC at Rosehill, alang-alang kay Kuya Jess...hayup, dazer na pala ako..grabe, life changing yung DAYS na yun..ang dami kong natutunan at marami pala akong ginagagong tao amidst all the priveleges they have given me...Basta ikaw Lord. ano pa ba, oh...ang dami na rin naming experiences ng banda, ang dami na naming performances, name a few, one sa aa auditions, na sa hinayupak na recording studio na yan at pinagbayad kami ng 5,000 for the sake of recording 3 songs na pinakanta pa ako ng coheed na sabog...literally..pero worthwhile dahil we passed the auditions, it was really fun, lalo na nung auditions, it was the first time yata, oh yung batch party, na we got to perform sa maraming girls, about 90% yata nung mga tao dun..pero amidst the napupyuptulan ng mic an all, ayos siya...ewan ko..pero i guess, ayos naman...sana...grabe, i forgot to ask kung sino si the girl in white....awww...baka fourth year na yun..asa pa mehn..anyway, recently nga lang, sa kfd ng 1-G at 1-H, dude, pare tol, i saw kuya jay, migs chavez, nakababading, at si mong alacarz, together with papa macoy and his band...hiniritan pa nga ako ni migz na, "di ko naman cd to ah" fc ako sa kanya, yet he still signed the KAMIKAZEE cd of clau. lupet mehn, gusto ko energy ni mong...at lalo ni jay..ang galing talaga ni kuya kamikazee at ni kuya chicosci...so we performed, 2 songs lang, for Bianca's sake, ganda niya...anyway, ayun, we performed hands down..na kala ko, the crowd will go wild kasi common kaso, wala din, unexpectedly, i cant tell was a hit..ang heavy daw...yey. ang saya saya..it was a complete ahhhhhhhh..and uuuuhhhhhhhh.....yey..may nag encore pa..kaso tama na..galit na si guy on black... galing ni jay mag scream...pati si migz...pati na rin si macoy... and that was the night.... oh yes, a lot changed in terms of genre of music, i thought that the used was heavy enough, it's lighter compared to underoath and aiden...i'm more into screaming now...whole lot of screaming... i just need my hormons to step up..para ayos na...hopefully we can get through of our compositions para maka compete na kami..mehn, 3rd year na kami...we need to step up...anyway, speaking of changes...meron din di nagbago..ewan ko, no comment na lang ako..anyway, its gibberish to say that i must and can still pursue these things but rather it was false hope.. God give me a sign..anyway, I must open open the doors and windows to see the evergreen scenery just like in the photograph i saw sa class...oh mi god...:)anyway, one thing is certain, i still and am....thats the point. dumadami na din ang ume f# aat g pa nga eh...grabe...ooops....hahaha...oh my God, 4 months to go..and still...silence...buntis na katahimikan....i wish i could update this gibberish now and then...guten aven... it hurts to see....inside this heart you remain, but faded letters are erased. -seven black roses.

survey

2006-05-22T21:17:00.001+08:00

wala magawa..

Name Your:
.:. high school: Ateneo DE Manila High School

.:. elementary school: Ateneo De Manila Grade School

.:. favorite soda: coca-cola

.:. favorite band: basta rock..

.:. favorite animal: elephant at baboy

.:. favorite fruit: peaches

.:. favorite weather: cloudy

Do You:
.:. have a girlfriend/boyfriend: nope..very single

.:. want a girlfriend/boyfriend: hmmm..?

.:. want more piercings: ayaw..kadirdir..

.:. want a tattoo: oo..I'll bleed for..

Last:
.:. talked to: myself

.:. shower: knina..

.:. watched: back to the future..!

For or Against:
.:. long distant relationships: ok lang..

.:. killing people: nope..against

.:. teenage smoking: against..

Have you:
.:. ever cried over a girl or boy: ewan..haha
.:. ever been arrested: uu hehehe

.:. ever had a friend die: wala pa naman..pero sana wala naman

.:. ever dated a cousin: no! sana. haha..
.:. ever used a gun: uu hehehe

.:. ever finished a puzzle: yes.

.:. ever got surgery: di pa. freaky.

.:. ever hated someone: let's be honest. yes?

.:. ever made a huge mistake: yes.

.:. ever tried any drugs: no.. ayaw ko..I still have an effin life to live.

.:. ever jogged a mile: yeah..dati. ehersisyo.

Number:
.:. favorite number: 7.. lahat ng meron 7 ayos.

.:. of times you've have had your heart
broken: no comment.

.:. of drugs you've taken: 0

Last Person who...
.:. slept in your bed: ako?

.:. made you cry: I can't cry..

.:. yelled at you: ah..yung radyo. race against the machine.

Pick one:
.:. blue or red?: blue.

.:. spring or fall?: spring.

Random stuff:
.:. criminal record?:wala. I'm a good boy. ?

.:. do you speak any other languages: yeah. a lot.

.:. piercings and where?: wala..

Your:
.:. initials: V I N T M

.:. how old do you look?: young and old enough

.:. how old do you act?: hmm..ask them.

.:. braces: ayaw ko pa.

.:. do you have any pets?: oo. isang zebra at elephant

.:. do you get embarrassed?: oo naman

beer

2006-05-18T21:09:00.000+08:00

A song by itchyworms..

Serbesa, beer, bud, whatever..

haha. la lang.

E7sus Am7 D7
Nais kong magpakalasing
G E7
Dahil wala ka na
Am7 D7
Nakatingin sa salamin
G-G7
At nag-iisa
C
Nakatanim pa rin

Ang gumamelang
Cm G E7
Binalik mo sa`kin nang tayo`y maghiwalay
Am7
Ito`y katulad
C
Ng damdamin ko
Am7 D7
Kahit buhusan mo ng beer ayaw pang mamatay

Pre-chrous *

G C Am
Giliw, wag mo sanang limutin
Bm CM7
Ang mga araw na hindi sana maglaho
Bm Em
Mga anak at bahay nating pinaplano
Bm CM7
Lahat ng ito`y nawala
Am7 D7
Nung iniwan mo ako kaya ngayon

Chorus **

C G
Ibuhos na ang beer
Em Bm
Sa aking lalamunan
C G
Upang malunod na ang
Em Bm
Puso kong nahihirapan
C B7
Bawat patak anong sarap
Em Em7 CM7
Ano ba talagang mas gusto ko
Am
Ang beer na ito
D7 G
O ang pag-ibig mo

(intro)
(repeat 1st verse chords)

Nais kong magpakasabog
Dahil olats ako
Kahit ano hihithitin
Kahit tambutso
Kukuha ako ng
Beer at ipapakulo
Sa kaldero't lalanghapin
Ang usok nito
lahat ay aking gagawin
Upang hindi ko na isiping
Nag-iisa na ako

Repeat **
Instrumental...C-Cm-G-E7-Am7-C-Am7-D7
Repeat *
Repeat **

burgoo.

2006-05-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

happy mother's day to all...:D love you mom.:D
haha..

bloo gum...

2006-05-07T21:05:00.000+08:00

wooohhhhhhooooooooo...It was so much fun!!!! mehn, we were practicing for a gig then Mar. Escuadro invited us for a gig at marikina! BLOo Gum Alley, of course we all had problems making paalam to mour parents but in the end, we all had the green light!!!! woohooo, we went to the place and at first we were so scared and dumbfounded because the place was really a bar, inuman and lots of stuff..but also I was scared because I do not yet memorize Chicsilog..dude..hassle..anyway, the band of Mr. E, performed first, Koochie onna Balmyard..Lupit! RAstarian and Bob marley..Idol, and that gave me the kaba.., after 8 or 9 songs, they stopped and let us play..MehN, I am really scared because we were suppose to play NArda and I can't reach the high parts, but buti na lang, sinalo ako ni Neil! Idol! I am very nervous that's why nasisintonado yata ako, o sintonado talaga ako..haha..After that, we played SugoD, wooohooo, one hell of a music, hanks to SandWich...damN, but still I didn't get the vocals ryt..nerbyoso...After that, We palyed Coheed's A favor house, damn! I was nervous because it was really hard and thankful when I got over it..haha.. After that, we played Basketcase and I played back-up to Neil and IT was a hit! haha...bago siya, dati! haha..After that, we played our own rendition of Your Song of Parokya and at last, I had the feeling that it will be smooth and it was, thank God, I saw a Girl drinking in the audience clapped for the song and i was relieved...thank God..woohoo, after that, it was the finale dapat, Chicsilog, I sang it with Neil, and it was fun! woohoo, but damn, the audience asked for another then we decided to play No use for a name's friends of the enemy! woohoo! I was dead by that time, yeah, sintonado ako...After that, the audience clapped for us..haha or for them..haha..Paolo was great with his outstanding leads, nakana, and Bassist dave with the groovy bass and JUn's rhythmic guitars, Neils' superb vocals and guitars that led to a number of fans, girls, waiting outside to know him better! hahahahaha Piolo! and the man behind the outsatnding drum leads and beats, Nico, he was the man of the day! hahahaha so much for a day, I pray that we have more gigs to come and we get better and better especially for me! mehn..haha..special thanks to Nico for his support as the manager...Kolumn bar, here we come!..thanks for my family for coming there...and the fanily of Jun, Nico Claustro, Nico M, Paolo for supporting us..Mr. E, a lot of thanks..It was the gig that I'll or we'll never forget..

soon...

2006-05-05T20:21:00.000+08:00

Kring Kring...

Hello?

hi.

How are you?

Fine.

why did you call?

ah...just wanted to..

what?

uhhmm..i jus wanted to tell you that..

oh, wait lang someone's on the other line... call wait.

ok..

ok ima just call you later ha..ok bye....

oh, ok..bye...

Kring kring...

hello ..!$#$% ?

no, it's not. it's Liz...

Oh..Why'd you call?

oh, just wanted to tell you that you should come by tomorrow for the practice..

oh, i almost forgot..sure.

okie, one more thing, bring a cruiser or some rhum , for haha

oh.. I'll try..haha..you want some booze eh? haha ok

bye.

bye.

Kring, Kring..

hello?

seven days!

wtf..

fraekazooid

2006-04-30T18:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm..started the day with a nice mass then a walk to the park reflecting on the questions about life and a quesion given to me by lolo, will i study abroad and have a sure success in my life or stay here, study in ateneo and get ass whooped by the ongoing crisis? hmm...ano nga ba? Well, the adabantages of studying in Australia or europe is I get to have a good education and I get to have all the books and other stuff that I need to be a good lawyer and have a nice job there and just return here..but..I will miss my band and friends, get independent and see some kewL european girls...woohooo, the last last two are great but the other two are horrible...I still don't know whether i should try out this new road or way but i know it is neither miserable or fantastic for me...I guess, I shall have the answer this school year...but an unusual question came into my mind...the question of being one with Christ in a closer way...Being a priest!? hmm..sounds crazy...but I don't know...

liebe ist

2006-04-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

this is my favorite song from nena...

Du guckst mich an
Und ich geh mit
Und der ist ewig
Dieser Augenblick

Da scheint die Sonne
Da lacht das Leben
Da geht mein Herz auf
Ich will's dir geben

Ich will dich tragen
Ich will dich lieben
Denn die Liebe
Ist geblieben

Hab' nicht gefragt
Ist einfach da
Weglaufen geht nicht
Das ist mir klar

Du und ich
Das ist ganz sicher
Wie ein schöner tiefer Rausch
Von der ganz besond'ren Sorte

Und wir ham' ein Recht darauf
Uns immer wieder zu begegnen
Immer wieder anzuseh'n
Wenn die grosse weite Welt ruft
Werd' ich sicher mit dir gehn

[Refrain]
Liebe will nicht
Liebe kämpft nicht
Liebe wird nicht
Liebe ist

Liebe sucht nicht
Liebe fragt nicht
Liebe ist
So wie du bist

Gute Nacht
Meiner Wunderschöner
Und ich möcht' mich
Noch bedanken

Was du getan hast
Was du gesagt hast
Das war ganz sicher
Nicht leicht für dich

Du denkst an mich
In voller Liebe
Und was du siehst
Geht nur nach vorne

Du bist mutig
Du bist schlau
Und ich werd' immer für dich da sein
Das weiss ich ganz genau

Du und ich wir sind wie Kinder
Die sich lieben wie sie sind
Die nicht lügen und nicht fragen
Wenn es nichts zu fragen gibt

Wir sind zwei und wir sind Eins
Und wir seh'n die Dinge klar
Und wenn einer von uns geh'n muss
Sind wir trotzdem immer da

Wir sind da
Wir sind da
Wir sind da

Wir sind da
Wir sind da
Wir sind da

[Refrain]
Liebe will nicht
Liebe kämpft nicht
Liebe wird nicht
Liebe ist

Liebe sucht nicht
Liebe fragt nicht
Liebe fühlt sich
An wie du bist

Liebe soll nicht
Liebe kämpft nicht
Liebe wird nicht
Liebe ist

Liebe sucht nicht
Liebe fragt nicht
Liebe ist
So wie du bist

So wie du bist
So wie du bist
Liebe
Ist so wie du bist

Liebe
Ist so wie du bist
Liebe
Ist so wie du bist

Liebe
Ist so wie du bist
Liebe
Ist so wie du bist

Liebe
Ist so wie du bist
Ist so wie du bist
So wie du bist

-nena

"ang alak ay naiinom, hindi nalulunok.."
-fifth sutra

gensomaden saiyuki

2006-04-26T21:08:00.000+08:00

i have been watching saiyuki and i came along with a site... i am sanzo..:D maten sutra..

border="0" alt="Which Saiyuki weapon would you fight with??**">

Which Saiyuki weapon would you fight with??

freido..

2006-04-20T18:10:00.000+08:00

oh..it has been awhile since i last wrote..err...actually typed... I just watched Aeon Flux..mehn, it was a very good movie...Charlize Theron, hOt! but I guess the movie is a real metaphor of the world we live in. We are controlled by powerful forces that let us view only the things that are very substantial and "appropriate" for us. The politicians who only think about their stay in power rather than thinking about the millions of poor children wanting to finish school but because of lack of money succumbed into working children. I guess this is not what Jose Rizal or Andres thought of. The politicians rather think of their ways to put their terms in a longer one opposed to the "what it should be". But I guess, the opposition can't put Gloria into smithereens because first of all, "sinong papalit?" who's worthy to claim the throne... No one right?! The Philippines is in a state of confusion and is just picking on "the lesser evil" or should i say. Joseph Estrada, first of all, didn't finish school, for all the voters, Why pick him? That's why, the people, or advisers from his helm, corrupted him and made him do those stuffs. Don't say that I'm a pro-Erap, because I tell you, I was with my Lolo, in Edsa..shouting Erap resign! I thought in that time, that another David through trhe form of a woman could change everything...but I was wrong...It's very clear to say that she too was corrupt.. I don't want my future sons and daughters to experience this.. Marcos' time, we were no.2 in asia, opposed to Japan... but what the heck, where are we? Vietnam who just finished a damn war with the americans is ahead of us...If a war could stop this so be it..Civil war i supposed..but I guess we should learn to trust these officials..I don't want another Edsa, I want a change, a change of hearts between people..between Filipinos...Kahit masama sila, we should learn to love them...Opposition or Administrative...they should help each other, for their sons and daughters.. I want a change..Learn to love each other...Love your country! Love others! Love youself!

grr..

2006-04-11T19:18:00.000+08:00

it was a very good day...almost...whoo...my friend was texted na by her pinakaminamahal...good for you....ako...5 seconds...again...haha ayos lang yun...some things are worth waiting for. nhux. it is holy tuesday...tomorrow is easter wednesday...

2006-04-10T16:01:00.000+08:00

haii....naka-chamba na naman ako for the 6th time...nhux...3.21 is my score...chambalero...God is really there....I just watched Pope John Paul II's life story...Inspiring...Love is the answer amidst all the differences and apathy....However, I just got to talk to...for a short time..like 3 seconds? harhar...Holy week...Pray...believe...Fast...and God will show you salavation.:D
Guten Aven.:D i wish after holy week, my wishes could come into reality...

err...

2006-04-09T20:15:00.000+08:00

Oh...I had a very mediocre day in eastwood...well, before the goddesses came, my friends and I were like, "oh, nasan na sila?" then we were like so bored and just played billiards...then, when they came, we were all..chickens.ako lang pala.....It's always, that side girls...and that side..idiots...ako lang pala...haha..I was too shy and don't know what we'll talk about...really...But I guess, it was ok...I guess...And the best part for me, wasn't able to take place because they left na, I don't know gusto ko nga mag blue onion kahit ako lang kaso junjie and jun told me na I should go with them na kasi di ako safe mag-isa.....but...haha if there's a will ther's a way..I bought a cruiser blueberry yum.. in katipunan and shared it with myself...harhar..speaking of ending it in a big bang...grr...sorry girls if you are reading this...really apologize for what happened...I will make up for it next time...err...sorry talaga...haha...

lyrics harhar.....

2006-04-05T14:07:00.001+08:00

Passed out in our school clothes so we'd wake up in our Sunday's best
I never asked for your opinion, I just got it and I get it
You move slow like daytime drama
And I'm boring like his songs
So while I'm taking you for granted
We'll be humming along

Well cross my heart and hope to...
I'm lying just to keep you here
So reckless (so reckless), so,
So thoughtless (so thoughtless)
So careless, I could care less

Well cross my heart and hope to...
I'm lying just to keep you here
(So reckless)
Well she's so heartless,
And I could care less

So paint your face up something elegant
And this time maybe a darker shade of red
Cause a long night means a fist fight
Against your pillow and my pearly whites
I want to hear you scream you like me better on my knees
So let us pray
(we don't believe in second chances)
So let us pray

Don't you ask me
Don't you move (anywhere)

Cross my heart and hope to
I'm lying just to keep you here
So reckless (so reckless), so,
So thoughtless (so thoughtless)
So careless, I could care less

Well Cross my heart and hope to
I'm lying just to keep you here
(So reckless)
Well she's so heartless
And I could care less

Well cross my heart and hope to
I'm lying just to keep you here (I'll keep you here, I'll keep you here)

One of us never did it but we're taking it all.
And tell me why you never promised that you wanted it all.
And her eyes never batted when she said it
It's a long night, hoping knowing...

This glass house is burning down (hoping all night, knowing...)
You light the match, I'll stick around (hoping all night, knowing...)
I'll give you everything you want (hoping all night, knowing...)
And wish the worst of what I was (hoping all night, knowing...)

This glass house is burning down (hoping all night, knowing...)
You light the match, I'll stick around (hoping all night, knowing...)
I'll give you everything you want (hoping all night, knowing...)
And wish the worst of what I was (hoping all night, knowing...)

Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Well tonight won't make a difference
Well tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Well tonight won't make a difference

Well I can't regret,
(can't you just forget it?)
I started something I couldn't finish
(And if we go down, we go down together)
best friends means,
(well best friends means)
And I've got a twenty-dollar bill
that says you're up late night starting
(fist fights versus fences in your backyard)
Wearing your black eye like a badge of honor
(Soaking in sympathy)
from friends who never loved you
(nearly half as much as me)

**
Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
("it's just what anyone would do")
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
("it's something unforgivable")
**

Well I can't regret,
(can't you just forget it?)
I started something I couldn't finish
(If we go down, we go down together)
best friends means,
(well best friends means)
And you never knew
(well i never told you)
Everything I know about breaking hearts
(I learned from you, it's true)
I've never done it with the style and grace you have
But I've made long term plans
(based on these mistakes)

**Chorus**

Is this what you call tact?
I swear you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
so let's end this call,
and end this conversation
there's nothing worse...
(that's right he said, that's right he said it)
I swear, you have no idea
The jealousy that became me thinking
(that's right he said)
that you always had it way too easy

**Chorus**

Best friends means I pull the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
[x5]
Best friend means i pull the trigger
Best friend means you get what you deserve

Sister, I'm not much a poet, but a criminal
And you never had a chance,

love it, or leave it, you cant understand
a pretty face but you do so carry on,
And on,
And on

I wouldn't front the scene if you paid me
I'm just the way that the doctor made me on,
And on,
And on,
And on

Love is the red the rose on your coffin door
What's life like bleeding on the floor?
The floor,
The floor
the floor

You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me your reason to believe

So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
and make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

Preach all you want, but who's gonna save me?
I keep a gun on the book you gave me,
Hallelujah, lock and load
black is the kiss, the touch of the serpent son,
it aint the mark or the scar that makes you one
and one
and one

You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me your reason to believe

So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
and make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

(guitar solo)

You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
You wanna follow something
Give me a better cause to lead
Just give me what I need
Give me a reason to believe

So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
and make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
and make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

Rahh

It's our time to shine through the down
glorified by what is ours
We've fallen in love
We've fallen in love
It was the best idea I ever had

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and SHARPER!!!
Found a box of sharp objects
What a beautiful....
Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and SHARPER!!!
Found a box of sharp objects
What a beautiful THING!!!

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and SHARPER!!!
Found a box of sharp objects
What a beautiful THING!!!

SICK!!!

Do you want a song of glory?
WELL I'M FUCKING SCREAMING AT YOU!!!

It's our time to shine through the down
glorified by what is ours
We've fallen in love
We've fallen in love
It was the best idea I ever had!!!

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and SHARPER!!!
Found a box of sharp objects
What a beautiful...
Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and SHARPER!!!
Found a box of sharp objects
What a beautiful thing...
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful
...box of sharp objects what a beautiful THING!!!

You almost always pick the best time,
to drop the worst lines.
You almost made me cry again this time.
Another false alarm,
red flashing lights.
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die.

I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry.
I buried myself alive on the inside,
so I could shut you out,
and let you go away for a long time.

I guess it's ok I puked the day away.
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way.
And if you want me back,
you're gonna have to ask.

I think the chain broke away,
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine.
But it was worth the night,
I caught an early flight and I made it home.

I guess its ok I puked the day away
I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way.
And if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer than that...

My foot on your neck
I finally have you,
Right where I want you,
Right where I want you,
Right where I want you,
Right where I want you

I guess its ok I puked the day away
I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way
And if you want me back,
You're gonna have to ask

Nicer than that,(I guess its ok I puked the day away)
Nicer than that (I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way)
Yeah, and if you want me back,
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that
Nicer!!
Nicer!!

new jersey bound when sound asleep they'll find you at your most vulnerable
poll position speak up let out
when down the street the corner boys fuck shit up

scream loud scream sayonara oh oh oh
sweet josephine will you follow me home
scream loud scream sayonara oh oh oh
sweet josephine will you fuck me back home

let's fire it up haha now
let's fire it up haha now, sayonara
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon and i'll pray for you, high health
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon

speak up let out caught in the crossfire
compared to the step to the bone that might break
it's too late to find a better way out of this
with the finest regards that i lost in the cracks of this street

scream loud scream sayonara oh oh oh
sweet josephine will you follow me home
scream loud scream sayonara oh oh oh
sweet josephine will you fuck me back home

let's fire it up haha now
let's fire it up haha now, sayonara
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon and i'll pray for you high health
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon

don't let them scare you
take me home when you run they'll follow you
take me home when you run they'll follow you
take me home when you run they'll follow you
take me home

your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could
recall the moments that once have
re-track the footsteps that brought us to this favor
i wouldn't ask this of you

good eye sniper
i shoot, you run

the words you scribbled on the walls
the loss of friends you didn't have
i'll call you when the time is right
are you in, or are you out
for them all to know the end of us all

run quick they're behind us
didn't think we'd ever make it
this close to safety in one piece
now you want to kill me
in the act of what could maybe
save us from sleep and what we are

good eye sniper
now i shoot, you run

the words you scribbled on the walls
the loss of friends you didn't have
i called you when the time is right
are you in or are you out
for them all to know the end of us all

bye, bye beautiful
don't bother to write
disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
face step let down, face step step down

the words you scribbled on the walls
the lots of friends you didn't have
i'll call you when the time is right
are you in or are you out
for them all to know

bye, bye beautiful
don't bother to write
disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
face step let down, face step step down

bye, bye beautiful
don't bother to write
disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
face step let down, face step step down

Faint white figures paint my sleep,
Please don't tell my secrets keep them hidden (you got it, you got it, you got it)
If the words that matter reach your face from the floor,
will you be wondering if, or (do I need what is given or honest)
Does it cost me scarring if the words stay true
even number your nephew (I don't want it anymore)

(Chorus:)
And when the answer that you want
Is in the question that you state
come what may
come what may
(Repeat)

In a pain that buckles out your knees
Could you stop this if I plead (you got it, you got it, you got it)
So destined I am to walk among the dark
a child in keeping secrets from (Will they know what I've done in the after)
In the sought for matter when the words blame you
in a blood red summer I'll give you (I don't want it, I don't want it, I don't want it)

(Chorus:)
And when the answer that you want
Is in the question that you state
come what may
come what may
(X2)

what did I do to deserve?
What did I do to deserve? (This, this)
(x2)

(ad-libbing)
wa oh wa ooooh
wa oh oh oh woah

what did I do to deserve?
What did I do to deserve? (This, this)
(x3)

What did I do to deserve
What did I do...

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

(Music Intro)

Here I go...so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one
And I know...you can see right through me
So let me go...and you will find some one

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one...no one like you
You are my only my only one
My only one(x3)
You are my only my only one

And I'd give up forever to touch you,
'Cause I know that you feel me some how.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am......

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something new
I know moving on is easiest when I'm around you

So bottle up old love, throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
a year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Waiting, day goes through
My lips are sealed for her
My tongue is tied to a dream of being with you
To settle for less is not what I prefer

So bottle up old love, and throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
A year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

(du op du op la la la la du op du op la la la la do do do)

Got a big plan, this mindset maybe its right
At the right place and right time, maybe tonight
And the whisper or handshake sending a sign
Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait nevermind

Late night, in passing, metioned it flip to her
bestfriend, it's no thing, maybe it slipped
but the slip turns to terror and the crush to like
when she walked in he froze up, leaves it to fright

Its cute in a way, till you cannot speak
And you leave to have a cigarette, knees get weak
An escape is just a nod and a casual wave
Obsessed about it, heavy for the next two days

It's only just a crush, it'll go away
It's just like all the others it'll go away
Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know
You pray it all away but it continues to grow

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to fucking tear you apart

Then he walked up and told her, thinking maybe it'd passed

And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance
Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there
Told him how she felt and then they locked in a stare

They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do
Cause theres always repercussions when you're dating in school
But their lips met, and reservations started to pass
Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last

Either way he wanted her and this was bad
He wanted to do things to her it was making him crazy
Now a little crush turned into a like
And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell her

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to fucking tear you apart
[3x]

She screams when I'm away
She's been gone before.
I'm worried all the time
why worry anymore
Now I go, away
Now I know, today

I picked out your star
Turned night to day
A simple whisper from your voice
And I fade away
You wish for love
You pushed me away
Your love for me was everything I need
The air I breathe

she, now she's all alone
Her eyes they drown in tears
Their love was meant to last
But she is blind with fear
Now I go, away
Now I know, today

I picked out your star
Turned night to day
A simple whisper from your voice
And I fade away
You wish for love
You pushed me away
Your love for me was everything I need
The air I breathe

Leave me be
Now I'm free
Love reflecting everything
You want space
I need you to help me see this through

There she goes x's 3

I picked out your star
Turned night to day
A simple whisper from your voice
And I fade away
You wish for love
You pushed me away
Your love for me was everything I need
The air I breathe

I picked out your star
Turned night to day
A simple whisper from your voice
And I fade away
You wish for love
You pushed me away
Your everything to me...

Beautiful you are
Yeah, you I choose
I look to the stars
For a girl like you
And what I lost I have found
And, yeah, we'll wait around
For the girl that is you
Yeah

Maybe a chance
I could have with her
We shared a glance
At least I thought we were
And what I lost, I have found
And, yeah, we'll wait around
For the girl that is you
Yeah

You make my heart skip, but how?
I'm scared
What do I do now

I wanna go out
I'm stuck here all alone
I gotta get out
I'm here all alone
And I'm thinking of you
You're on my mind
I try to talk to you
But you never give me the time of day

I dream of us
And wake up alone
We'll take the bus
But I'm still at home
And what I've done I'll do
And then it's just me and you
And then you leave in May

You leave me hard and lonely
You are my one and lonely

I wanna go out
I'm stuck here all alone
I gotta get out
I'm here all alone
And I'm thinking of you
You're on my mind
I try to talk to you
But you never give me the time of day

Do - do do do - do do do - do do do do do [x2]

You are
Such a beautiful thing
And all goods things must come to an end
You are
Such a beautiful thing
And all goods things must come to an end
It's the end - It's the end - It's the end for you
It's the end - It's the end - It's the end for you
It's the end - It's the end - It's the end for you
It's the end - It's the end

I wanna go out
I'm stuck here all alone
I gotta get out
I'm here all alone
And I'm thinking of you
You're on my mind
I try to talk to you
But you never never never never

I wanna go out
I'm stuck here all alone
I gotta get out
I'm here all alone
And I'm thinking of you
You're on my mind
I try to talk to you
But you never give me the time of day

Do - do do do - do do do - do do do do do

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat, the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

damn...lyrics in my computer...boredom paved the way for this...From coheed to goo goo dolls to she wants revenge...
definitely, you're the one whos gonna save me...

Wonderwall- Oasis

hell...

2006-04-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

mehn, may test na pla si God about going straight to hell or not...Saw in google...kewl...
The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

arrghh...so bored ng summer...

2006-04-04T20:55:00.000+08:00

it was a very long week for me....I have three goals, the left and the right, hold them up high so clean and bright...harhar...boredom anyway, 2 goals i see from a faraway land is to get m a 6 pack for me to be fit and nice biceps.....I just feel jealous of fortune, the vocalist of inxs, thin but hot...ok na ga-gay na ako...homo freak! darn, i like to be thin but not anorexic in the sense na bulemic like lindsay lohan...freak...anyway, I'm planning where to go in summer, vladivostok or stalingrad...a sus, asa pa...i know it's my motherland but it's not yet the right time...want to see my fellow russian mates there...motherland...err...may joke ako...
Priest was saying mass when he was interrupted by a kid playing in the altar, he shouted "who's son is this" said frantically by the priest, then A women shouted, "Sa atin yan father! " hahaha...blasphemy....darn...Hayaan niyo, if i didn't get to fulfill my mission I will join the congregation and be a pope and save the world from mojo jojo and have my palakol just like Zenki and kill the asses of bad people and proclaim rock music as the national anthem of the Philippines....and eat the binhi ng kadiliman of all people...harhar..bull crap... I miss someone...someher...I haven't talk to her for a while now and it sucks...I really adore her and worship her...she as her name says..means what she is inside and out...ok emo time...I guess try listening to slowdance in the inside by taking back or see the lyrics and you'll know what my situation looks as for me ha...really like her...I guess... I'm really bored now but I guess I still need to figure out how to give a present to someone...harhar the end is near... Guten Nacht!

2006-03-29T19:39:00.000+08:00

Uhh... ok... this is not me... my modem got busted... I asked someone to do this for me... oh well... this is as good as my blog... VinO...

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide your home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I..

Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Fix You by ColdPlay

Creeps and Dungeons = My bedroom

2006-03-24T15:57:00.000+08:00

Bed ridden...lolz...I just read eleven minutes of Paolo Coelho..mehn..inspiring...LUpet..Neil GaIman naman...I have nothing to do here in the house...Playing with my imaginary friends and waiting for my alarm wheter i would go ol or not...but it malfunctioned...Stupify...anyhow, I still managed to read a dew books that will definitely put my sickness into control....tuk tak tuk tak...Oh I remembered, i recently watched some videos in mtv and I had seen many good ones...Pag-agos, lupit...twin effect...I also like the words...bawat Oras..pfft...i also liked Iris..Goo goo Manyikas..Lupit nung song, I liked the song plus the video..Awe Inspiring...Lupit...HarhaR..hmm..Another one is She Wants Revenge...Tear You apart...woOt. Liked the "lines" European people have a sense of meaning and depth in their songs...Oh...Another one is Only One by the not so emo, Yellowcard.."For You're My ONly One..." Oh, Jason Mraz rin pala, You and I Both...."Was it you..." har har...any way, I just saw UrbanDub's First of SUmmer.."alt tlaga sila..." parked CAr.. as opposed to the Mayday..harhaAr.. Still waiting for the video of the "nagwawalang" Type/Cast...Mehn.. Idol...I wish I had their energy...:d PffT.....last NiGht too much juice paved the way for a double work out on my side....WorkOut Vino...Work Out.."A one thousand peso value, your's abosolutely free..." haha----> naalala ko na namn Orange and Lemons....haha... Guten Nacht...:D go bayern Munich! :D

Cards are meant for Poker..

2006-03-22T22:10:00.001+08:00

Oh...this was a very happy day...wow! sobrang saya..how sarcastic ..looking forward to the Subic beach... damn! I want to beat the white boys again in basketball and play poker until it's past four in the morning...I miss the beach near the dolphin show...wanted to see the not so dressed americans with their fat asses in the beach...again...haRhar..joke! Green...Crap...I miss subic...i miss my relatives...i miss my friends...i miss "my" guitar...I miss Lisa and the american koreans half danish in subic...i hate their boy friends...haha...Joke!I beat you all in basketball...I miss the vodkas and the gins... i miss everyone...i miss Ms. Olmos...and PV..I miss the morning kulitan and the afternoon "benggahan".. I miss the scandals with Nico and the gang..i miss the gays...I miss fr. RB...I miss the tricycle drivers in katips...I miss Crixalis and the bunch of scourges...I miss Ateneo...I miss my second home...I miss you.... Still thinking about you until now...WAiting...I like you...

Stupifying Day....Crap... but dear friend J-ton saved the day...

2006-03-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

J-ton bat ang galing mo?? shit ka! you fixed my blog....thanks! :D I don't know who'll do better than you...:D I just need a tagboard and some layout fixins and I'm done with my first blog...wow. ang saya. harhar.. I met many people today... namely.. boredom, misery, my lover and dear old heartsickness...I had a terrible heart attack and I wasn't able to get up for a few hours...thanks to the french red wine in the ref and I was revitalized...woohoo...It was a really boring day but I learned to play some songs in the guitar for me to serenade ms. misery and her gang of dimwits...cRap. i miss my friends and the war between the sentinel and scourge being me a loser but enjoying casting an epicenter to good old nico and paolo...har Har...double kill...But the only thing that was playing in my mind all day is how I could be able to talk to my High...my Happiness... bUt dear old fate, i'm sick and used to you you fat ass blood sucking pain in the ass...I hate you fate i really hate you...anyway, i'm CrYing all day just to her Pic...DamN..What a StaLKer... BuT I admit she makes me happy...I tell You...BuT I'm STill wondering...Who's Mr. BrightSide?? harhar...Ok enough about being eMo..But, I want to be emo...to hell with you sucker...Damn, as i see her pIc..Mehn...It's the eighth wonder of the world, it's my NirvaNa It's like seeing the wonderful sunset amidst the beach...DaMn, I wish she knew what I FeEl...But dear old katorpehan, some words are left unsaid..Bull Dung... I'm Just waiting for the right moment..but yet some doubts trouble this soul...Will I meet wicked rejection and his companero, Loneliness or the happy threesome, the 3 musketeers , True Friendship, Acceptance and Trust...Nobody Knows...Move your ASs before it's too late...haha...This is so Sentimental, but haven't felt like this in the 16 years of thy being...BuT one thing is certain, as things unfold through each day, the more I yearn for your prescence...hoping that you'll also feel the same...AsA pa boi! :P as dear colleague Chris Martin (tama ba?? basta yung sa ColDplay) sung that really caught these ears of this Benvolio, "Look At the Stars look how they ShIne for you..."

2006-03-15T20:25:00.000+08:00

I've got my blog....but don't know how will i be able to play around with it...oh mehn...